Although I completely lack any inflection of the accent my home town is known for, I am in love with local word and phrases. Shy bairns get nowt (meaning if you don’t ask, you won’t get) is one that has been said at me more times than I care to think about. I used to hate it but I now find myself saying it to my friends and saying it to myself along preceded by “fuck it” when I’m a bit nervous.
Saying yes to things and asking for things has become a big pat of my gap year. It’s how I ended up doing YPFirstIn3 and the HuffPost thing.
Throughout my Edinburgh posts you’ll have seen the phrase “networking like a woman possessed” and if I haven’t typed it out as much as I thought, I’ve been saying it pretty much every day.
It’s meant that I’ve stopped treating people who currently have the career I want to have with such otherness (as in “They’re so much better than me, I could never talk to them”) and started treating them like normal people. Last year I made friends with some of the artists I was working with, this year I’ve not avoided the topic of what I want to do and how I intend to go about achieving it. Rachel Chavkin is a person who lives, breathes and worries just like me so I treated her like one (though I did see her faint before I talked to her so maybe that made things slightly easier).
One of the best moments of my Fringe was when, after seeing Lippy, Kat and I were sitting with one of the cast (who was a friend of hers) and he asked if I was working with Secret Theatre. I quickly told him I was 19 and he said “So?”
It’s one of the best, and most liberating, things I’ve ever heard.
I am always concious that I’m one of the youngest people in the room but what I should really be focusing on is the fact I’m in the room and have as much right to be there as anyone else.
A couple of things I talked about and am now in the process of setting up are:
- A meeting with the producer of Secret Theatre (who is absolutely lovely)
- Sitting in on rehearsals for the Northern Stage under 5s Christmas show
- The possibility of interning with New Georges in New York
All pretty big things. I also achieved things like talking to Jimmy Fairhurst, Artistic Director of Not Too Tame, technically setting up my own theatre company (which means I’m an Artistic Director as well - how weird!), and finally showing some of my writing to a select group of people which got some really positive feedback.
If my Fringe 2014 experience has taught me anything it is say yes and ask. Ask for the moon, the stars and everything else in the sky. The worst possible outcome is that you are told “no” but you’ll be surprised by how often people will say “yes”.
Shy bairns get nowt.
Lots of love,